Where I was.
It made my heart hurt to think of "me" last year at this time.....
[closed off, desperately lonely, confused and frustrated]
I don't really look any different on the outside.But my, how my insides have been changed.
I find myself introducing myself to people more often, looking them in the eyes and asking them how they're doing, opening myself up to new opportunities.
I'm a different person.
I've had some great experiences lately with new people.
New people... who are kind and fun and who make me laugh.
But it's weird, you know, it all ends up the same.
I come home and think about my blue eyed boy with those crows feet around his eyes from smiling so big.
I would be lying if I didn't say that part of me is scared to still have these feelings that I do for R.
Because in all reality,
I don't know that it's going to work out.
But I do know that even when things were "off" that deep down
I had a feeling
that everything would be ok. I didn't know how
or when
or why
but things just have a way of working themselves out.
"If you wait to do everything until you're sure it's right, you'll probably never do much of anything."
Man I've been trying to write this post all day.
I just can't seem to get out the right emotions, or words for that matter.
I think I'm just going to go to bed.
Kels....WRITERS BLOCK!!! ha
Sorry for the suck post.
Oh and I stopped doing that music thing.....
I blame it on a little thing I like to call getting a bachelor's degree.
5 comments:
All I can think of to comment on this is...Yeah! I think not knowing what will happen is a good thing because we'll subject ourselves more towards the will of The Lord.
Or at least..that's what kind of effect it has on me.
you are just awesome.
awesome awesome awesomeness.
I love you (and your email) and this whole story. YOUR story.
You are writing a good one!
go go go!!
Whit, you are truly an AMAZING person, inside and out! You inspire me. And you look beautiful in those pictures:)
Dear Whitney,
I follow your blog (I'm Kelsey's friend) and can I just say that our lives are STARTLINGLY similar in relation to our missionaries. Anyways, I think we should be friends because a. you're adorable, b. you are hilarious and c. it would be so wondrous talking to someone in my situation who would understand the ups and downs and doubts but crazy-deep love for the missionary man. Find me on facebook or talk to Kels-- I'm quite serious about us being friends. I think it could be great :)
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