At 8:30 this morning my alarm woke me up and I was off, running [literally running] from one place to another starting this and finishing that.
Tonight I sat at my computer and uploaded pictures from my day.
From one click to another I found myself getting lost in old pictures. I didn't recognize the girl in those pictures. How did she act? What was she like? Who was I then compared to who I am now?
Time is moving at a speed I'm not comfortable with.
When R left, I couldn't picture how life could go on without him.
But now, over 20 months later, I am having the hardest time picturing life with him.
I am getting closer and closer to this big huge question mark & I'm overwhelmed.
Will I be able to let him in like I let him in before?
...that's a rhetorical question.
I want some cereal.
Tell me something funny.
6 comments:
Whit I worry about the same thing!!! But it's Whitney and Ryan.. It can't not work out :)
Also I like that you were saying naughty things to the frosting. Basically I love you.
mmm frosting.... and also you guys are like pb&j's!! he's the pb cuz he's a nutter, and your the j cuz you are all jelicious and stuff! (i'm trying to make up a metaphor, just work with me here) so basically... you guys are yummay together! ok i'm going to bed.
Bahaha I like Ash's comment. :) It's freaky, huh? That weird feeling of not remembering who you were when someone else was here and so much a part of you? I have a feeling you'll guys figure it out pretty darn quick :)
Ugh, I feel that way too that I'm having a hard time picturing life with Matt again! It makes me feel horrible. But things will work out. It takes two to make it work, and you and Ryan will make it work!
boy do i know what you mean! i'm sure everything will work out- one day we'll probably look back at ourselves and how silly we were for being so worried about the mish-men. but in this instant, there is nothing silly about trying to figure it all out hah. way to say naughty things to frosting. you are my role model.
It's so impossible to imagine what you life will be like again when they come home, but honestly they fit in like they never left. The two years will feel like a dream that just slipped on by. Don't worry too much about it all, it will work out how it is supposed to work out. Enjoy life and just look forward to the day when you can give Ryan a huge hug!!! Smile :)
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