Dear Ryan,
I ran across this picture of you today, I totally forgot about it & I love it.
Wonder what you're thinking about? What's on your mind?
Here's whats on mine:
I've hit this weird phase, and I can't seem to kick it. Are you feelin it too?
I guess it all started when my friend asked me something about you, and I couldn't for the life of me remember. I couldn't remember! Gosh, it made me cry.
I know this is normal, I mean you can't remember everything right? I've tried to write it down as best as possible and I think about you all the time, you know that.
Don't worry, my love hasn't changed, and never will. I'm right here where I've always been.
But I hate reading your letters and emails and thinking, "Now, who is this again?"
I want so badly to know your every move and thought. We are leading separate lives and have been for 9 months, and I guess it's just starting to hit me? I'm weird.
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I think it's a part of love though, really. You want to experience life with the other person and know what they're up to all the time.
You talk of adventures and all I can think of is picking up the phone and talking to you about it.
Some days I'm convinced that you're going to walk right through my front door.
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I hope I didn't just make you up, but if I did, I did a pretty dang good job.
I know in 15 months we'll pick back up where we left off, I know we will.
I just wish I wish I wish I wish.....that you were here.
Love, Sweets
3 comments:
Oh Whitney my girl, I am so sorry. I don't think I understand the kind of pain that you experience with Ryan being gone, but I do know that you're so strong. I hope that through all of the letters you get to read and the nearing phone call you'll receive, that he will again be tangible to you. I am no good and comforting, but know that we love you at home and support you to the ends of the earth. :)
Hey whit, I totally understand your pain. Our life before seems like a fairytale, and it's hard to be sure it was real. But it was!! Call me anytime and we can share stories about our missionaries and be reminded of the good times :)
whit,
this post made me cry. I have been feeling this way for a long time. I just got letters for the first time in two months (that's normal for me) and it just was the weirdest feeling. it's almost like i don't know him anymore, but i knowww that i know him...you know? He is living life everyday in Mexico and I only hear about it every two months. It's such a drastic difference from hearing from him once a week like last year, and then also so different from before the mish when we did everything together. I can't keep my life on hold and neither can he, so we are both living life and growing..just in different places, without each other. I know that after this experience I will be so much stronger and that every lonely moment will be 100% worth it. But sometimes it is hard to focus on that, so i feel ya! We need a girls night hun!
love you,
Hanna
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