blog about it.
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General Conference added to the pure happiness I've felt this past week.
I just, have been given so much encouragement that the path I'm on is 10000% picture perfect.
Having Ryan go on a mission has not always been easy for me. I've struggled with thoughts like:
"Why is this soo important that he has to be alienated from everyone and everything he loves?"
"Whyy does he have sooo many rules?"
"Whyy does it have to be 2 years?"
"Whyyy did I have to fall in love with him BEFORE his mission?"
Gosh, I'm such a whiner.
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But today, Elder Holland said that he loved each of us. But most importantly, that Heavenly Father loved each of His children individually.
And here I am-I see now that I am BLESSED with the chance to have my best friend, my love, be willing to give up everything in order serve for the Lord, as the Lord would serve if He could. To be the Lord's hands. To share the tender heart that I know he has with others.
It just hit me today. This is not a curse as I had originally thought.
It is an incredible, life-changing miracle. And I am lucky enough to be a part of it.
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Another thought that was brought to my attention today-
The Lord WILL bless those who live by His laws.
Serving a mission, really, is one of God's laws for members of His church.
Living God's laws may not always make sense at the moment. It may be hard, frustrating, time consuming, life consuming.
But my testimony, my hope has been increased that with time, His laws make sense. You see why He puts them there in the first place. That realization alone brings peace and happiness, but it doesn't always come easy.
And then He will still bring more blessings into the picture for living that law in the first place.
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I guess that's my new goal: "If the Lord says it, do it."
Whether it makes perfect sense or not. Whether it seems reasonable or not.
Because this mission has taught me that doing it= blessings beyond what I can comprehend all at once.
If it applies here, it will apply to every challenge in my life.
I hope I never forget this. (and that! is why I blog)
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Oh man, it has changed me. And it will continue changing me (we've still got a while left...).
It's all just a small exchange to be with him (and my family and his family and our family)
forever.
Just between you and me, but I think I'm getting the better end of the deal.
3 comments:
Awww Whitney this post made me wanna cry!!! You are amazing and have such a beautiful perspective! Thank you for sharing! We are lucky girls :)
Seriously...this is an amazing post! I love that your "why's" had multiple y's so that it sound whiney in my head. :) Seriously...I really love everything you said here! Thank you for reminding me to be grateful. :)
Yes Thank you ! That is helping me a lot! Especially thinking of what you said if the lord says it, do it! I want to live by that too!
Oh and I love how we look at each others blogs all the time haha! I don't have one though. Thank you!
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