is this a movie or my life?
is he hot or is he hot?
this post is just for posterity sake. please disregard.
as of today, october 5th, 2009, here's what i'm feeling:
-lonely: still struggling with Ryan being gone. it's just scary, lonely, h.a.r.d. i know i'm making the right decision, there's no question about that....especially when i get letters that say sappy stuff like the quote above. we are on the same wavelength, so he always has the right words to say that give me motivation to keep going. i've got to take it one hour at a time, one day, one week, one month, at a time. it will get easier.
-trusting: i'm trying to have more faith in myself and in my heavenly father. i've always been the one to have a plan B incase things don't work out, but in my situation with ryan, and with nursing school....it's all or nothing.
[life=risk.]
i'm sitting here with my life in my hands, turning it over to some higher power, accepting the fact that i am no longer in control. i just show up and do what they tell me.
-stressed: nursing school is a blessing as much as it is a curse. i feel like all of this direction is awesome, it's great, really, I'm grateful that I know what I'm doing with my life. but my major is difficult. i've chosen a difficult path. sometimes direction means sacrifice and a lot of work. i wish i could play with my roommates more. i wish i didn't have so much homework. but i know in 3 years, when it's allll over, i'll look back and be glad i did it. especially after that first life saved, first baby delivered, first...paycheck. am i vain?
- blessed: overall, i'm really fortunate. i know where i'm going with my life, and i've got my best friend, my sweetheart already by my side.
Q: what more do i need?
A: sleep.
1 comment:
oh. my. gosh.
i seriously thought that was a quote from a movie.
wow!
whit, don't let this guy go!
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