For those of you who know me, know that I am trying to get into the nursing program here at BYU. As if getting in to BYU in the first place wasn't good enough for me huh? It's the 2nd hardest program to get into here at BYU, where the acceptance rate is only around 30% and about 95% of applicants have a 3.92 GPA. Talk about pressure. I've been carrying this elephant of a burden on my back since I began my career here at BYU. I have been a studyaholic and somedays the pressure is insurmountable. I have some pretty tough science classes with some of the same people and we're all trying to be "the best" "the smartest" "the first to raise our hand and answer a question to prove that we're smart".......yeah I'm more the "deeeeeeeeeeeeerrrrr" type-I usually have no idea what's going on. HAHA...but I've been doing it, I've been putting in the hours and I've been working sooooooooo hard...I spend almost every night in the library until it closes usually, and there is no such thing as free time in my world anymore. But I guess I wouldn't have it any other way. Despite it all, I'm happy, I feel accomplished, and I'm learning a lot. But anyways, I have a point to all of this complaining. A boy in my ward gave this extremly emotional talk on faith yesterday in church that hit me right to my core. He talked about praying for a righteous desire, and doing everything you can to get this certain desire, but it still doesn't happen. He then talked about a talk from the April 2004 conference where Elder Simmons talked about this same concept.
"Our God will deliver us from ridicule and persecution, but if not. . . . Our God will deliver us from sickness and disease, but if not . . . . He will deliver us from loneliness, depression, or fear, but if not. . . . Our God will deliver us from threats, accusations, and insecurity, but if not. . . . He will deliver us from death or impairment of loved ones, but if not, . . . we will trust in the Lord.
Our God will see that we receive justice and fairness, but if not. . . . He will make sure that we are loved and recognized, but if not. . . . We will receive a perfect companion and righteous and obedient children, but if not, . . . we will have faith in the Lord Jesus Christ, knowing that if we do all we can do, we will, in His time and in His way, be delivered and receive all that He has."
I have been putting my whole heart, my whole self into this goal. I really want to be a nurse, and I don't want to have to go somewhere else. I've been praying, fasting, doing all that I can so that I can become a nurse here at BYU.....but if not....if it's not what the Lord wants for me, I know that it's not right and something better will come my way.
Sometimes that's a hard pill to swallow.
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Whitney! shoot..dang...I just love you so much! Each time I read your blog you take me RIGHT BACK to my time at BYU!
My degree desire wasn't nearly as prestigious as nursing or business. In fact, I didn't know ANYONE who didn't get into Elem. Ed. Sort of one of those majors that when you told people they were like, "ooohhhhh". :)
But I was passionate. I got excellent grades, I took ALL the recommended classes (even though I knew tons of girls who didn't and still got in). I swear I did everything right, which is why I didn't even think twice when I applied. And then came my letter. I wasn't getting in the semester I applied for...maybe next time.
WHAT?!!! After the disbelief and frustration, ANGER set in. Are you kidding me? I knew people who had JUST decided to "try" elem ed...and got into the cohort...I knew as a senior in highschool this would be my declared major! ha!
So, some BIG time humbling took place. I actually went to talk to the dean (so he could SEE what a great applicant he had denied! haha!) but long story short, I learned to be ok with this disapointment and I actually assembled a semester full of classes that I was excited to take. I tried to look at it like I would never have had the chance to learn these things had I gotten in when I wanted to.
Funny thing happened, about the time that I got over the anger, and got excited about my new little detour in life...the dean called. I was in.
Mysterious ways I tell ya. Mysterious ways.
Whit, I totally understand! I'm applying to studio track on March 30th and am stressed out of my mind...I really want it and I've been working hard, so hopefully I get in. I can't believe you have to wait until June! I'm go out of my mind! Good luck, I know you'll get in :) And if not you can come live up here with us!
That is one of my all time favorite conference talks. It is so powerful. You are a great girl, keep up the great attitude!
Cool story from Tara BTW, what a cool girl she is!
You are so awesome Whit! That talk is great. I hope that you get in, but I'm glad that you have an understanding that someone else is in charge and knows what is best for you.
O man, it's quite the time of life we're living. I love looking back at who I was when school started last semester and how much I've grown since then. I think that through all our hard trials we've just figured out how wonderful the little things are. You have grown so much and are so wise! I think it is important to keep these things in your journal too... you might need them later for comfort in other areas of your life.. O how wonderful life is from all the things we still have to learn! I can't wait. :)
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